Saturday, September 20, 2008
Sick. I was not in school for almost a week. Hospital check -ups,tests and medicine make me wanna puke.I hate the sight of doctors, and hospital's smell. Hours felt like years in there. It gave me headache, spinning around in my own world.
Yeah, beside those shits, I am having so much to think about. Things are not happening the way they should be.I don't know how to put it, but, just too complicating and confusing. Sometimes I wonder where I should be now. I couldn't simply spend my life a few years in a place and couple of another somewhere else.
I've been moving since young and it's really loathe some. The bonds that I've made, the feeling that I've grown, everything would turn into nothing. I always become attached to places that I've lived in, to the people around. And what about love? It always die before it could happen.
Oh please, I beg for assurance. I'm tired of moving around, let go of what is attached to me and start anew. Could I just settle down like any other human, and live the rest of my life there?...